opening up!

ok-so I am pretty private about somethings..........and open about a lot. But I had lap band surgery recently and it has been so hard. Its hard to explain to people and its hard to deal with. I feel like I am depressed all the time and I know I have been so unbelievably different and quiet and its not because I don't care or because I am changing, I just don't like to be emotional or "weak" in front of people so I just don't talk. So to anyone who I have been "cold" to...I am truly sorry. Things are getting better and I am hoping I will be healthier now. That's another thing....now that I am started....why do people assume I only did this to loose weight? I actually like who I am, and I did before. I did it for health reasons....weird. Anyways-thats enough venting for me! Thanks for being there!